Good morning! One week smober today! Let's see if I can make it to two. I took my Passages calming supplements this morning, followed by a handful of pomegranite seeds, a banana, iced coffee, and about 30 white cheddar bunnies from Annie's Naturals. I know, it's processed flour and dairy, oy.i had a fierce salt craving. I need to get more oatmeal so I can have that handy. For my online class there are four more chapters and a final exam in a month!

I'm going to start putting time aside to meditate once a day. I'm still thinking about acupuncture, but I am already doing self-acupressure, which is vary relaxing.

The sun is out on this brisk day. Enjoy it!

I made it another day smober. I went to a concert tonight at a theater usually reserved for operas and musicals. It was Puscifer, Maynard Keenan of Tool's new side project. It's a funnier yet still political side of Keenan. It was pretty naughty but I laughed and had a great time!

Namaste,

Smobergirl

Day six!

Good morning! I woke up at 7:30 and I'm at Oasis having a mint ginger tea, and a tofu veggie scramble with roasted red bell pepper sauce. Superb. I'm a little phlegmy and coughing a bit, but my energy is high. I am ready to tackle my assignment. I got some Boiron holistic tablets in lobelia and nux vomica. The first staves off craves and the second helps post nausea. I like them a lot. My friend had to stop smoking for a month because of surgery, and she swore by them. The Passages supplements? Well, I am not feeling any different, but they are packed with body-healing vitamins. They better work, they were expensive. ;)

Hello. :)

The dancers were terrific. I went to see a group called Pilobulous. They are this crazy modern dance group founded in 1971, the year I was born! It was good arty farty fun.

Then after the show I drove in front of my place and bawled my eyes out again for no reason. Then I got a burrito, ate 1/2 of it, and now I'm in bed with my hot water bottle, as prescribed by my former holistic therapist. I had a crave before and kinda after the show, but they were both pretty weak. That reminded me of my breaking fast-food habit. I'd think about egg mcmuffins but then I chose not to go there. I couldn't go there anymore after watching Supersize Me. Now where's the alcohol and cig documentary Sundance film? After three months I just didn't think about fast food chains anymore. I don't think Beto's plain bean burritos count because that's just beans, salt, and tortilla. If anyone finds out they use lard or MSG, please let me know. Besides, I plan to break that habit as well.

So I'm just going to play around on my computer or read "Medititaions From The Mat" by Rolf Gates until I fall asleep. I have my web article up that I'm going to write my final nutrition assignment on. Being older really does make a difference. This class has been so fun and a cinch.

Good night my friends,

Smobergirl

Day 5

Sorry for the type-os and split message, for I will fix them when I can get on my computer. It's nice to text posts from my phone though. I feel better. What an emotional day though. I felt like just doing nothing all day. I did work out with Gilad however. I'm also stoked for this modern dance show. I took modern and jazz as a kid so I love all kinds of artsy fartsy dancing.

I haven't gotten anything done! Stuff came out and I spent the last two hours crying on the sofa watching a taped Dancing With The Stars. Now I'm out for a walk getting some air and vitamin D. Even though my parents were profectionists which made me one in fear, maybe I should just chill and take care of myself. My easy as pie assignment isn't due until tomorrow night. I will only submit my painting if I can get a good percentage out of the sale. What else? Oh for sure I will do a fun FitTV workout today. That is medicine. I just feel guilty all the time being a bum, but if I got a 9-5 senseless job I'd be more unhappy. I am very, very fortunate to afford the time to put myself together. I need to see this a truly a blessing and not worry what others will think of me. Some may make fun of me out of jealousy. And if not they have too much time on their hands. I watched Kelly Osbourne on Dancing...and in this show she explains that she turned to drugs after the Osbourne's reality show started and she heard radio DJs making hateful comments about her. It seems most of us addicts start using when we don't feel adequate enough. Do I need to tell you that? Well I'm off to be frivolent and get my free boxers. Then maybe I'll finish my painting.

I am feeling jittery from the coffee. I feel better when I have it in the afternoon, so I think it's time for another experiment. Tea or smoothies in the morning, and a 12 oz iced coffee in the afternoon. If that amount gives me anxiety then I'll quit coffee. I had a great morning, got a couple of plants and an Italian sandwich and salad which I will eat at home. Gotta finish painting, nutrition assignment, get free boxers at Lucky Brand, practice guitar, work out, and go to a modern dance show tonight!