Good food

Hello. I just made a quinoa pasta and even though I can't move nor zip up my pants (a cup and 1/2 isn't a serving?) I still don't feel guilty. This means no nachos for me at Argo, but I may have to get a frozen hot chocolate later and eat 1/2. I don't usually condone eating junk food but a) What is alcohol and b) during my one-year quit I ate all kinds of crap at times and didn't nearly reach the weight to when I was drinking. Booze is a powerful bloating substance.

Working out works

I did a killer kickboxing DVD today and it relieved so many ailments: tightness, anxiety, anger, worry, low self-esteem, and depression. It was Amy Bento, who kicked my ass royally, something I desperately needed. There were also a few dance elements which I appreciated with my dance background and knowing that's all Madonna does is dance. Well that and yoga, at least she used to do tons of yoga.

I didn't eat this in the dark, the flash was on. I have a great cook in the family who used this recipe from The Pioneer Woman. It's a corn cake lettuce wrap, I don't know the exact name for it and it looked way prettier when she made it. I had left overs today and threw things in the lettuce. It's pretty amazing though. I had a kale, plum, pomegranate, and apple smoothie this morning with a little oatmeal, and a hard-boiled egg for a snack. Need that protein for all of those punches.

On day one I didn't want to barf so I did a gentle yoga routine at home, Rodney Yee's hip opening sequence. Funny entertainment is also therapeutic, and after watching SNL with the fam I went to 7 Psychopaths with a friend the next day, day two. Day three here and the Antabuse is keeping me out of trouble. I got a sexy black outfit in the mail from an LNA coupon and I tell you that is confidence-boosting. Pics coming soon. I picked up a $116 check from the consignment shop and I'll see if there's anything else I don't wear or doesn't make me feel awesome. The goal now is only wear clothes that I feel flattering in. No excuses that you need a significant other to wear sexy anything, under things included!

Recap: Exercise, laughing, feeling sexy. This is my pathway out of smoking and drinking. There will be a day where I'll get off the Antabuse and I need a backup plan. Plus my mood is already skyrocketing at day three. Well I did have two months, before then six months, and before then a year smober also within the last two years, but you get the gist.

Love,

SG

Day three

Doing it right

Junkies love to make excuses. "I can take Antabuse every other day and it will still work." Means, "The day I don't take it I can probably still get away with drinking." So I slipped last night, late, and stil turned red and itchy. Then I ate then kept drinking and the redness went away. I took an Antabuse this morning and will continue to do so every morning. I am ashamed, I ranted on the social network drunk and sent some angry emails. I was pretty hurt but this is not a way to get redemption. I have friends worried about me. I am just glad that they are there.

I am drinking water with Amazing Grass Creamsicle flavor which is pretty tasty. I'm going to power yoga in an hour. Just do it, like Nike says. Working out definitely keeps the craves at bay. I may cough or gag today, but I'm doing it.

Love,

SG

Day four catch-up

Thighs...burning...

I did a kettle bell DVD workout and it's not so much my arms are sore, but my thighs from swinging the damn thing between my legs! Hurts so good. Jillian Michaels' 30 minute Weight Shred. Check it out.

Eating well, having a little iced dessert here and there. Back on the melatonin to help me sleep.

Night,

Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzmobergirl

Love and soup

Well it's been a while! I slipped and have been in the dumps lately, but it hasn't effected my diet, AND I'm back on the Antabuse as of today. My insurance doesn't cover it anymore but I can tell you $153 every month compared to $400 of wine and cig money, it's less than half the price, and it can save my life and reputation. No money amount should matter when it comes to your life.

That said, I'm still on the smoothie train and I am sad that I can't get to lemon spinach until next June. Boo hoo. However I'm still cranking out the watercress tangs and pineapple-cilantro smoothies. It's also pomegranate season and I throw the seeds in. Drinking alcohol can effect your bladder, so I'm also adding cranberry capsules to my diet. I lost more weight but I haven't been working out so I take the stairs and clean the place more, etc. I did do an ab video I absolutely love. There's six two-minute-ish videos you do on fitnessmagazine.com. Back to the diet, it's soup time and I've been eating tons! Still up with the salads: kale, butter lettuce, baby spinach, arugula, and romaine. I pick one then put brewer's yeast on it with a little lemon juice and dulce flakes. I'm also now 'addicted' to sea salt and avocado on toasted slices of Ezekiel Sesame bread. Try pink, grey, or black medium-grain salt, it gives it a little crunch.

What kept me out of trouble was working temporarily every morning at ten. Then I went right back into trouble when it ended. For me, something to physically stop me is the only thing that works. I'm also grateful that Antabuse has no side-effects for me. During the job if I craved I would get a frozen hot chocolate and eat 1/4 to 1/2 of it. Getting one tonight thanks very much. The thing is that I have to stop being ashamed and feeling worthless. Like I said before, people don't have to understand. Usually only alcoholics understand other alcoholics. And don't blame your family for getting the gene either. They probably struggle(d) as much as you do.

I'm doing better and I need to let the bad stuff go. I know I'm good enough, smart enough, and doggone it...

Smobergirl

Day one.

Food is effective

Have you seen those articles, "Wonder why you're so tired after a meal?" Take it seriously. I think Snyder is right to go light to heavy during the day. I had a crave so I thought it would be okay if I took a new de-stress multi-vitamin then I can have an Amy's light frozen spinach lasagna, an iced coffee with almond milk, and the last 1/4 of a frozen hot chocolate. Getting tired, I ate a slice of orange bell pepper. That isn't the cure, for you should stop eating completely after you had too much or if the food makes you sleepy. It's night and day. I had veggie sticks with hummus for breakfast and I felt great. Then I just ruined the energetic feeling. Oh la la.

Well last night was a completely different story. I actually had 1/2 of a frozen hot chocolate for dinner! What's wrong with you woman? Then I made a lavender and chamomile iced tea and drank about 20 ounces of it. I was feeling sloth, so when "Don't Worry, Be Happy" popped up on my itunes I did legs in the air pose on a block, something I did in yoga boot camp to that song. After that, to the energetic music that followed I did a 30-minute yoga practice and felt amazing. My endorphins sky-rocketed. Then I woke up at 8:30 instead of 5-7:30 most mornings for the last two months. I wonder if eating to much too late makes you wake up earlier. Because I ate close to nothing last night. I don't endorse it, but I noticed a difference and felt more energized also.

I have bought a box of 2 mg nicotine gum instead of my usual 4. Cutting down to wean off.

It's day three of mot buying anything material in the appreciate what I have month. I have an idea to organize my necklaces on one side of my necklace stand, and each day wear the one on the far end and put it back on the other side at the end of the day. This way I wear all of them and nothing gets neglected.

Smobergirl

Back in biz

Woo hoo. Okay my speakers blew their woofers, both of them! See the beauty in everything: My trusty sales man at the audio place I've been going to for 18 years gave me a speaker lesson, plus I wouldn't had thought to use sub-woofers for my next gig because it's in a gigantic warehouse so that would be a must. I'm such a dork I just know how to segway awesomely and play the hits. I will be a tech master soon enough now. So, the speakers are in the ER and we'll see if they survive the surgery.

I also landed two more part-time gigs up my alley. One is vacation fill-in radio-broadcaster at a hit station. Hey I'm back in radio at least, and the team is non-competitive and the APD is like my big brother. Good news. Good karma. I have day jobs and evening jobs, so now I'm set for staying out of trouble. Back in bid-ness.

Snyder would be so proud of me today, well minus my morning iced coffee.

Breakfast: Tangy lemon spinach (told ya I'd try it), cucumber, yellow pear, green grapes, lime, kale stems, chilled water, and Thai basil leaf smoothie. Winner winner.

Lunch: Kale salad

Now: Snyder's Delish Squash Bisque


That's not enough food is it. Being back on the regular dose of bupropion is curbing my appetite again.

However I'll try harder for dinner, and besides that my spirits are quite high today.

It's another 'appreciate what I have' month and going shopping in my closet! No clothes buying all month.

Love,

Smobergirl