Reggie Watts

Synchronicity! Well, maybe I should make a smoothie blog and reserve this one for my spiritual path. Oh yes, finding Reg is spiritual. Truth: When you (or at least I) think of someone whom I haven't seen for a while that person or even thing eventually shows up, and sooner than later. I was watching SNL last week and thought, "Who is that guy whom my friend introduced me to earlier this year? He is so funny!" Then literally one or so minutes ago on HBO there's a commercial for this guy, and as you see his face is unmistakeable and unique. Crazy!!! Check out his videos, especially the one on Conan. He's a comedic musician.

Other 'coincidences' that have happened to me, especially since, admittedly, I saw the movie "The Secret":

I didn't have a hair elastic one day two years ago, which wanted me to get out of a yoga class. I went anyway, and had a feeling to park in the east parking lot, which I found...a hair elastic on the ground behind my car.

I thought of my high school boyfriend a few years ago and the next day he added me on FB.

Also a few years back (these all seemed to happen during the year I saw The Secret) I thought, "My talent agency hasn't called me in months." The next day...

On top of that, ever since I saw that movie, I've been scoring sweet parking spaces.

However, I never said, well actually I did, but maybe it didn't work in seven years since I wished it intentionally, "I want to stop smoking and drinking." I had to do it painstakingly on my own through yoga, diet, shopping, and other distractions. Well, maybe it did work. :-)

Love,

Smobergirl

19 months!

Smoothies gone wild

I think I'm ready to start a smoothie blog. Should I abandon this one or rename it is the question?

This shake is packed with enzymes and you can also add strawberries according to the creator Sarma Melngails. This is from her book Living Raw Food:

1 small papaya pitted

1/2 pineapple

1 mango

1 orange, peel cut away

1 lime, peel cut away

1 cup coconut water or filtered water

1/2 cup dried goji berries

I didn't have a papaya but I added 1 tbs of coconut oil, something Daphne Oz (Dr. Oz's daughter) eats three times a day. Coconut oil is a healthy fat, you can sautee vegetables in it, and it makes a great hair shine and body moisturizer.

Love,

Smobergirl

Merry Christmas!

Love and food.

I am now over a year and 1/2 smober, and I couldn't be happier. However, I had a romantic at-home fondue date with my man, and it's true, you tend to eat more and not so much like a hippie when you have someone. Cheese, wine, bread, oh my! The wine of course was cooked and we didn't want to go out and get two bottles for ourselves. This is, fabulously, a respectful relationship. I love it.

Mucho mejor

A week later I'm still seeing my friend on a romantic basis. I feel tons better since my last post. I did yoga, breathing exercises, and meditated every day. BUT, I have a Sunday dinner post-Thanksgiving hangover from my dad's and step-mother's. I need to be more mindful of my diet. Earlier yesterday I made one of my favorite salads from Sarma Melngailis' book, the "Fix Me" salad. It's kale, pumpkin seeds, and pumpkin oil which I added cracked sea salt. I really want to keep my diet clean.

The man is great, and I'm learning more about myself, mainly how I need to chill out. ;-)

Long time no blog

Well let me catch ya up. I haven't relapsed since, and a miracle of sorts happened. My friend of two years who I really liked called. We then actually made out straight all weekend. Then, sigh, I got a depo shot and that day I snapped at him for a petty situation. I got off Depo Provera for multiple reasons remember? I thought I'd up the maca intake and things would be better. I haven't snapped or felt hormonal since. Perhaps it was an initial shock. This blog is about mood so I thought I'd pass that along to you. Well, he's been more distant, occasionally texting, and we are supposed to hang out tonight. Maybe he was busy with his family for the holidays and it means nothing. Yoga has definitely calmed my mind and accepted most any outcomes. Oh the miracle part? He told me everything I wanted to hear and then some that made me feel much better about my life. Also I learned that I beat myself up way way waaaaay too much. He is a great guy. However it also made me think that I don't have to be in a romantic relationship to be happy right now. I'll keep you posted. I love myself. I love my own schedule. I love working out every day and eating right and having time for my goals. So I had a lot of time to think. Life is good if not better. Also I can't believe that ten smober days have already flown by.

Love,

Smobergirl

Day 557/10

Relapse

This time I am not joking. It happened last night. I made it for a year and a half. The world is also not going to end like I thought it would two hours ago. I just talked to a very good friend who made it all better, and actually made my life better. He's someone whom I've had a very interesting friendship with for about two years. And when I say interesting I mean a little awkward. See, we really really like each other, we just didn't show it, until tonight. However we are not going to necessarily try to make anything happen. He's a friend of Bill's and he's struggling too. I was also scared of being in a relationship with him but I really, really like the guy. He's hot, he can cook, he's witty, he cracks me up...and we've been going to dinner and movies for over a year and nothing happened! So weird. He even made me dinner once and rented a movie at his place and no makeout session! What? But tonight we got it all out. It was amazing. My life has actually improved by relapsing. I don't want to do it again! But some sort of miracle happened. You had to be there. And he told me it wasn't the end of the world. He walked me through how shitty I'd feel today and tomorrow, then I'd be back to normal in no time. Also he said that no one is going to care as much as I do so don't worry so much. The talk about us too was like foreplay. Heck the last year has been foreplay. Awkward, disappointing foreplay but now we're on the same page, even though we may never make out. We'll just see what happens. At least the awkwardness is gone! Well, most of it at least. :-) Life also isn't fair. I just started this 365 days why being single is better blog and I get three date proposals in one week. My friend (well kinda a date), another friend who may like me more whom I just like as a friend, and match.com guy whom I'm trying to feel out. And now I just want to be with my friend who I talked to tonight (first man mentioned). I am a living Murphy's Law.

So here we are. Do I start at day 1 again? Should I count? I'll tell you this, being smober for 18 months changed my life. I was filming today and had to run to my car. After sprinting across a courtyard, down and up two flights of stairs and back, my heart did not race. I wasn't panting. I didn't turn red. Something is said for not putting toxins in your body. Even after last night I felt super-human. It's changed my life. I have lost 30 pounds now. The year and 1/2 has been filled with good karma and just kept getting better.

I have now discovered the art of phone calls. They can save me, and my boy friend (notice I didn't say boyfriend) wants me to call him always. Do you know how long it has been since I've bonded with someone like that? Now I'm crying. This is a special person, and we have so much in common. Yeah the depressants are making me all emotional, but we need love in our lives, any kind.

Love,

Smobergirl

You are your emotion master.

I caught myself not one, but two times today starting to wad up my panties. Then I got the stuff out and meditated. It's just stuff. My stuff. I am a firm believer in coincidence and things happening for a reason, and I needed to learn this lesson today. I'm glad those scenarios happened. 1, ran into neighbors with baby when I was walking Bandit (bad timing, cat and baby no mix) and 2 ran into an old fling on match.com (dated him during my heavy wino days. No es bueno) But I breathed and cried and now I'm done! I cleansed myself. LOL. What am I doing on Match? Oh yeah, my new BFF was having a good time on it so I gave it another shot. I'm not sure, I may cancel again. I think I may. Dunno.

I think I'm eating too much sugar again. Yeah yeah. Blame that on the holidays. So to balance my emotions out I ate pretty great today. Iced jasmine tea and eggs florentine w/o the hollandaise. Lunch was warm quinoa with chili olive oil, cracked weird black Hawaiian salt and pepper; and a beautiful (really was) butter leaf salad with avocado and pomegranate seeds. I made it. Hold your applause.

It's Sunday, I should be relaxing. I'm going to take a hot bath now with a bath bomb I spent with wine and cig money. It's a better trade off fer sure dude. However I am going to start appreciating what I do have again, and let you know of those pay offs as well.

Love,

Smobergirl