Appreciating what I have

It's a fun game, really. I thought I wanted to try a $10 lunch for Dine O' Round today (last day) but got invited to Dad's to swim and have brunch. Then I thought I wanted an iced mocha on my way home (damn you coffee and sugar) because I had a 20% coupon at this downtown joint, but I went home instead and I made a chocolate 'milk' of cocao powder (useless trivia: cacao and cocoa are the same thing) and almond milk. Use the blender, it doesn't mix with a spoon. Watched the premiere episode of Dexter Season 7 (They are making up for the last two by a landslide! So far.) Then made some fat Italian noodles (1/2 cup) in olive oil and sea salt. I saved about $13. Sweet.

Then this morning I pulled out a pair of hardly worn Tarina Tarantino earrings about seven years old. They are a gem. I should wear them more often. Plus TT is kinda a big deal. I really do have every fashion item I need. Last night at the wedding I had only paid for my Nordy's Rack $25 flats and Kate Spade (on sale last year) purse. I just went naked. No I had an outfit from several shopping trips with my mother. Gotta love moms! A black blazer, gold cami, and black with gold brocade pants. She's quite the bargain hunter herself! Blazer from The Rack, H&M top ($4.50), and TJ Maxx pants. I got a boat-ton of comments on it. Dangit I don't have a photo. Well I kinda do but you just see the blazer. I also managed somehow to do a bang-up hair and make-up job. I never looked more professional nor elegant. I'll post it manaña. Plus I am in bed, it is after midnight, and this time I may very well be naked.

I also went a little freaky last week and donated my cheap-material jewelery (except for one pair of earrings) because I read an online article how toxic some of those materials are. Dangerous or not, my jewelry box was over-stuffed and it needed to make some sacrifices. It was pretty liberating actually.

I also thought I wanted Vamp, the famous-20-years-ago Chanel nail polish (It's like $26 now or something insane like that), but I have a deep purple Dior one (only about insanely $23 which I got about a year ago. Again, hardly worn.) You never know what gems you may have lying around, even like my grandmother's flower pin or my great-grandmother's felt and straw hats. Oh I have to show you my gram's little black dresses I inherited. She was a hot tamale in the 40s and 50s! I don't need no stinking lbds, I have two of the best, and ones no one else will have. So go shopping! In your closet! Or your storage unit! Go.

And just eat what's in your fridge and don't let those veggies spoil. Geez!

;)

Love,

Smobergirl

Internal alarm

I had a gig last night and went to sleep around 2 am, which I woke up at 7:30 like clockwork! Oy, well I'm a little tired but the lemon spinach I found at the farmer's market this morning perked me up. That's the best stuff, and a little hard to find for me. Now I made a kale salad with yellow heirloom tomato, avocado, and leftover mock chicken salad. I hope it's still good, there's a ton left. I squeezed a lime on it and added pepper and sea salt. I have Amy's Indian food in the oven.

Last night I received so many compliments on the way I looked, and I noticed my skin is a lot clearer and more olive-toned, like my last quit. Two months seem like forever to get to, but just after a month my belly bloat went down and I lost a lot of fat in my face. Eat your salads, kids! And healthy fats like green olives keep your skin hydrated, not fat. We need healthy plant fats for our skin, hair, and nails, and iced coffee addicts like myself. Just pace yourself with the olives. I'll have 2-5 a day. A handful of nuts. 1/2 to 1 avocado. It's also important what you eat the rest of the day. I'm making all kinds of creative salads and soups. Then I don't feel guilty eating healthy fat snacks. If you eat crap all day then have these snacks, that's not a good sign.

With my lovely lemon spinach I have a brilliant idea for a smoothie. It's excellent in smoothies. Okay how's this: Limes, celery, lemon spinach, pear, cucumber. I'll report back.

My only downfall this week is not exercising, and craving sugar. I was good yesterday and this morning. Gotta do some hip hop or something today. I look good, I feel calm, but I feel ecstatic when I work out. It makes sense! Even after not doing yoga for a week I've stiffened up. Tisk, tisk. The sugar I'll allow for the wine craves, but I gotta work out for my spirits.

Love,

Smobergirl

Day 65

Don't give in. Do something else.

Distract yourself, and Drink water. Three outta four ain't bad. Iced coffee and a milk shake uh covered the water part? Well, I craved fiercely around 6:30 this evening so I popped a piece of nic gum and got an iced coffee. Then I did some retail therapy, I bought a hot neon green top that makes my boobs look awesome for the price of a binge night. Wearin' that to one of my new quiz gigs. Then I grabbed a frozen hot chocolate which I drank half of and now I have this brilliant idea to blend the rest with the tiny strawberries tomorrow. Whew! It was a close one and I almost risked not knowing if I'd pass out after two glasses and go crazy on Wellbutrin like some of the stories I've read online. The horror is I don't know what kind of 'crazy' they were talking about. I just feel so much better, then there's my bloody shoulder...

This is actually a huge synchronicity and hil-arious. I had a 'feeling' to call my dermatologist on Friday because it's been about a year since I had my moles checked (and they aren't just on my face man) and I had an appointment today which I also found out my father had one later in the afternoon! I go once a year at that. So after my appointment in the morning I told him, and he said he was going in at four when I was told his was actually at 2:15 by the doc's office manager. So I saved him from being late. It's a miracle in disguise. Then he called me later and said the doc cut a mole out. Hey me too! However I was so excited to practice guitar for an hour and ripped the scab off with the medical bandage. Ow. So I'm still bleeding and I put this nifty bandage on. Then after my shopping and shake rampage I take it off and it's still gooey. Ew. So I slather Neosporin on it and my Yeti Attack bandage. If you see above on one of my other brilliant bandages the horn is pointing to a spatter of dried blood on my shoulder. Completely unintentional. Well here's to no melanoma and I think I'd get a call my now if it was malignant, same with my dad. What a crazy day.


Breakfast: Berry and kale smoothie, one hard-boiled egg

Lunch: Tabouleh, mock tuna salad, and my healthy rainbow bell pepper slaw

Dinner: Treat! Seared scallops and risotto with steamed veggies, Italian herbed olives, sauteed garlic on crusty bread, and the best tiramisu on the planet with the biggest blackberry I've ever seen.

Snack: Iced coffee followed by 8 ounces of frozen hot chocolate

I still ate light to heavy. I will do ANYTHING but drink or smoke if it comes to eating two desserts and buying a hot tank top. Porsche Design. $39 on sale. Thank you very much.

Love,

Smobergirl

Sloth

Why...am...I...so...tired....?...

I'll just roll with it. I did watch Sherlock for four hours. Then I did some power yoga and felt more relaxed and a tad more awake. I'm hanging with the neighbors tonight which will be fun but I hope I live. I'm such an old lady.You know what could add to the problem is me waking up at 6:30-7 in the morning. It is awesome that I'm waking up smober early than 9-1 hungover and miserable. So really I'm not complaining. I'm still eating well. Kale salad and popcorn for the PBS mystery. Maybe that's not enough. I'm planing on the rest of my slaw or mock chicken salad, a veg burger patty, and baked sweet potato wedges for dinner.

Lates,

Smobergirl

Good substitutions

I feel morally sound, and I was bounding with energy from 7:30 am until 10:00 am when I made a pineapple-grape-kale-ginger smoothie and performed a self body-slimming mud wrap while burning music for a wedding. Then I had a 1/2 avocado, muhammara with flax crackers, and an iced chai and I want to fall asleep! No coffee.That could be it unless the crackers and/or muhammara were too heavy. Or cleansing, or the mud sucked a lot out. Dunno! Yawn.

I still feel proud of myself taking the Wellbutrin, although it's half the dose now by my and not the doctor's choice. However the heart murmurs are gone, I feel better in the morning, I have no anxiety, I'm still calm, and I still can't drink or smoke. I don't even attempt it. Well at least it's Sunday. I washed my couch (I did. It's a Love Sac sectional couch and I can wash the covers.) and cushions so I can lay down in a chocolate brown cloud of clean. Sherlock did come in the mail. I can watch that then do my hip hop or yoga or both. Yawn.

Love,

Smobergirl

Day 58

I don't need substitute addictions!

Don't worry it's just junk food, but worry because it's junk food! I think it's making me depressed and gave me the biggest cold sore chain ever on my lip down my chin! That proves how "sad" our S.A.D. (Standard American Diet) is!!! Not only did I have two iced coffees along with the healthy substitute, two iced chais, I had a frozen hot chocolate and a happy meal for dinner. A Happy Meal! Will I promise not to cry wolf and have you trust me to start detoxing tomorrow? Then in a week I'll be clean and happy for the wedding I'm DJing. You know not just alcohol, cigs, and other substances, but crap food is also a temporary cheap thrill. I know better. At the farmer's market today I got the teeniest strawberries (like the ones I found in Capri), organic grapes, kale, ground cherries, aaaand that's about it for my cleanse. I also have vegan, gluten-free black bean burgers, mock tuna salad, and bell pepper slaw in the fridge. Along with local muhammara, celery sticks, cukes, pineapple, frozen berries, wild rice....I'm all set for the week ahead!

Love,

Wolfy

Two months in five days!

Sugar sugar

I just felt crappy all afternoon because I've been amping up the caffeine and sweets intake. Must...stop... I then had a home-made slaw and black bean burger patty for dinner and I feel much calmer. However I did want to cry my guts out about an hour ago.

Other than that life is fantastic and I'm getting the ball rolling with DJ gigs, meaning DJing parties and weddings. Summer was awfully slow for that, man. I'll also be ushering theaters (free shows dude) and I'll be painting again, any day now when I decide to get my ass in gear. I still have craves but the bupropion is handling that nicely. I cut my dose in half to avoid heart murmurs and possibly anger and depreesion. Depression on an anti-depressant you say? This is one of the reasons I'm anti-drug. Like Chantix which will help you quit smoking but you may have suicidal thoughts. Wh-at? Ugh I can't wait until 6 months are up!

I made a brillant smoothie today which magically tasted like guava. It's kale, with pineapple and mint (I think that's the magic combo there), maca powder, chia and flax seeds, and chilled mint/lemon water. It's my best creation yet.


Well bed time. More pics later. Just say no to sugar. I just need to nip this coffee thing finally. I DJ a wedding in a week so maybe I'll detox and I'll be glowing by the 29th. Hey it's happened before! I have violent tantrums on day three but then I'm a new person. :)


Smobergirl

Two months, Bender, on the 27th! (Breakfast Club ref.) You're mine for two months!