FIRE!

I just had a fierce craving. I know I said, "I can never go back there" before but it's not true tonight. I was upset about something about the new job (feeling like an idiot, mostly) and I just wanted to sedate myself tonight in vino and lots of it. Then I thought of the consequences, for one I have to be on the show tomorrow. Then I was watching Bitchin' Kitchen, a funny, sassy, cooking show on Cooking Channel. Each show has a theme, and this one was getting your anger put out by spicy foods. I can dig that. The host explained that the body thinks something is wrong when you eat an extremely spicy pepper, so the dopamine kicks in like CRAZY to make you feel better. So I heated up an Este pizza slice with a 1/4 diced scotch bonnet, no seeds. WOAH. It worked, and it was tasty. Brain feels goooooooood. Then I had another with Rico's guac/pico de gallo mix. I think this also calls for a spoonful of peanut butter and chocolate chips when a new Dexter episode comes on at 7. Speaking of TV and karma what came on after BK was a biography ('Chefography') of a TV host who got crazy with alcohol, and his father whom he hardly saw was an alcoloic and died when the host was 10. Then he went to a rehab in a beautiful space and realised how lucky it was to be alive. Then he went back to drinking, then was on and off "in limbo" so to speak. Then he met his girlfriend and tried to explain it to her but she didn't understand. He catered to Coachella (sponsored by Absolut) and partied. He had a wakeup call and never touched alcohol again after being offered a drink on the plane back. When he sobered up, he got the job at Cooking Channel. Karma. For the record he still is with his girlfriend. Thanks Chuck!

Also speaking of last farmer's markets, the last Wheeler Farm one was today and I took my new BFF, my dental hygienist. We stocked up on popcorn, greens, cilantro, grapes, and these crazy long radishes that look like carrots. We had a huge breakfast. My mind sticks sometimes and I found out that Brazil nuts and lutein in egg yolks are great for memory. I have the former and the latter I had yesterday and this morning. I also had their oat pancakes. I made an acorn squash and it's seeds for lunch. So delicious. I made one half with cinnamon, honey, smoked salt flakes, fresh mint leaves, and olive oil. Oh My God.

I was paranoid to dress up on camera tomorrow because my co-host is afraid to wear a costume in front of a Democrat he's interviewing. "He's a democrat!" I exclaimed. I don't think I convinced him. Hey, I calmed down, it's Halloween, sexy wolf is coming out.

Okay now my habenero brain feels greater than any drunken one would had done. Happy vs. angry. Happy=gooooooooood.

Love,

Smobergirl

Day 500-something awesome!