It's really tough when you are out of your comfort zone. There is no way around the pain. What I have learned, is that I am a much, much better person than I think I am. I focused too much on the crap and past history and didn't see all the good and luck in my life! I effect people, and I can choose to do right or wrong. Food is extremely important in effecting your life in general. When I was a yogi vegan, I still thought I was a little fat (well I was still drinking) but I was much happier then. I looked at those pictures and I thought I was glowing! Not so much now. Food is more powerful than we think. I'm at a vegan place right now, then going home to snuggle with the cats.