Learned more today.

That maybe I need a lifestyle makeover to quit bingeing for good, or just eat a lot of sugar. LOL Yeah, the refined stuff is evil, but so is copious amounts of wine. Thank God for this book I'm reading from my nutrition class: The End Of Overeating. It's about our obsession with food. I had an obsession for imported cigs (with by the way, SUGAR in the filter) and wine. And I've said this before, it was my boyfriend. Solely for that reason. Put anything in a tall bottle and call it a fancy name and it's instantly romantic. Pinot Noir. Sauvignon Blanc. Very romantic words there. I romanticized myself because no one else is, and do I have to do it with that poison.

However, the olympics have been a huge inspiration. I did 30 on the treadmill and a crapload of weightlifting yesterday. I saw a youtube video with Ohno and other skaters training, and they did these crazy hop up the stairs sideways on one foot exercise. When I can breathe again, I want to try that.

What makes me feel inadequate? I read somewhere that most of us don't think we are good enough. I think I was just in the wrong job with personalities different from mine. I was in the bath today whining "I'm too nice and sensitive for radio!" and I actually cried. My point is that I need to do what makes me happy, and not sacrifice my happiness for a 'dream job'. I've got to start painting again and doing mosaics. I am quite good at art. And the more I practice yoga the more crazy poses I can do. I'm an awesome individual. I'm a great healthy cook. My feet are pretty. Not many people can say that. Okay, haha, off to the stationary bike then I may have to get an iced coffee. No sugar. Maybe I'll take a tangelo. Tangelos are the perfect food because they have that knob on top which is easy to pull off and the peel is loose so it just comes apart. Liberty Heights has them right now. Go get one. ;) Okay maybe I'll hit the SL RoCo and get a slice of raspberry torte and just eat the dark chocolate icing and the raspberries on top. I like to do that. I wonder if Apollo would approve.

Love,

Smobergirl