Joy.

I feel good. I know the demon may sneak up on me again, but I want to say I know better now. I mean, it's night and day, you just gotta have faith~George Michael. If I'm sober, I have more energy, I can breathe, I'm more interested in life. If I drink and smoke, everything's a downer. I feel guilt, embarrassment, weakness, like I'm not in the world. Night and day. My alkie bloat has gone down so much, I told you my bra size went down in two weeks and I can wear size small shirts again. I am going to have a terrific day. Lesson, yoga, and a station event. Okay I need a big shower. I ate a chunk of parmesan last night and I can smell it through my skin! It was good while it lasted though.

~Smobergirl